Life has been a lil hectic. Kinda made me ponder over certain decisions I made along the way that brought me to where I am today. I ain't complaining though and have ever been so grateful with every single blessings that Allah s.w.t. has bestowed upon me.
I know I have been neglecting this blog for quite some time now. There were so much on my plate that I had to handle till at times, I forgot if I had gone to the toilet or even had a sip of water. Thankful that I have people reminding me to do my prayers. It's one thing to another, every day, all day. Looking back at my last post, it has been more than 3 months since I went on hiatus. Lots of things happened during those period and I gotta say it was one of my toughest moments.
As much as I was anticipating the arrival of Ramadhan, little did I know the plans of Allah s.w.t. during the period. I would not want to portray it in a negative way, but on the bright side, I get to understand the Deen better, I get to pull away from the worldly distractions, which served as a good reminder to me. Maybe Allah wants me back on track from all the obstacles HE sent.
Things was tough from then onwards and it is not easy for me to just share it publicly as it not only affects me. There are things to be taken into consideration, there are issues to be given serious thoughts on and most importantly, some things are never meant to be shared.
I am so thankful for solid family support that I had throughout the whole ordeal. Let me just be honest here, my Imaan was on its ups and downs. Some days I am a little more accepting of the fate and other days questioning, why do I have to face all these? But, I knew, at the end of it, it's getting me closer to Allah and how I learnt to depend more on HIM than others. Like how crying during the sujood, lifts the burden off your shoulders as you tell everything to HIM, even when HE knew what you are going to tell HIM. MasyaAllah!
I believe there are reasons for every single things that happened and the blessings of each happenings. Though I may not see it now, only Allah knows what the future holds. I am still facing it, putting on the façade daily, not being a hypocrite, but there are some things that you never want to show the world, especially the things that will break you.
Nevertheless, do keep me in you duas as much as I have kept every single one that still visits this blog. Tough times don't last, things will eventually get better. We just need to have faith, carry on and let nature take its course.
Till then! Take care lovelies!