Lama sangat membiarkan blog ini kesepian. Bukan kerana tidak punya idea untuk berkarya atau bercerita di sini, hanya kekangan waktu sering membuat Sya mengalah. Harus diakui, rasa bersalah sering menghuni hai tatkala Sya terpaksa menggunakan masa yang sepatutnya diluangkan untuk keluarga dan juga menulis untuk menyelesaikan amanah dalam kerjaya.
Sesungguhnya, sejak mula bekerja setelah terpaksa melalui bermacam perit jerih hinggakan adakalanya rasa seperti segalanya tidak berbaloi and I was on the verge to give up. But, Alhamdullilah, all these downfalls and hardship always made you stronger than you expected.
Sejak kebelakangan ini, Sya cuba untuk menjadi lebih baik dari hari sebelumnya. Memang susah, saat ingin berubah, saat itu semakin banyak dugaan yang harus dilalui. No one is perfect and we can never achieve perfection, but what we can do is try to be better. Every single day!
Honestly, this job made me realise a whole lot of things! Memang ada kebaikan disini, tetapi yang buruk itu biarlah disimpan rapi. And because of that, I started seeking. Seeking every means and every truth. Memang, setiap yang kita cuba cari itu bukanlah serta merta Allah s.w.t. akan memberikan jawapannya, tetapi one day HE will answer all your query.
Yesterday was a pretty down day for me. I was feeling so much pain, felt very confused and along the whole journey home, I was silently seeking, begging from the Almighty to provide me with answers. Why this happens? What shall I do? Who shall I ask for assistance? And a whole lot of other questions went through my mind. I decided to do some reading to take my mind off the hardships I was facing and I was directed to one of HIS Verse:
"...Truly my Lord is with me, HE will guide me through." ~ (Qur'an 26:62)
Allahuakhbar! That feeling when I came across the Verse, it was like Allah s.w.t. was answering every query I had! Come what may, HE will be there to guide. And every person or medium sent to assist me will be by HIS will. So, why must I be despaired? For HE is closer than any of us can imagine!
I may not be good neither am I religious, but yes, I do my part as an Islam but I realise, I have always put a whole lot of the worldly things before HIM. And like I said, all these can be change, but change requires time. So, yes, being busy with my work is just one reason, for now, I am also on a seeking journey, a journey that I believe Allah s.w.t. will be there in every step. In Sya Allah, I am hoping to attain the change I have been hoping to happen.
To all you lovelies, thank you for the support! Much love from deep down my heart! Take care and we shall talk again soon!